An ashtray full of butts, a 1/2 empty bottle of crappy wine and anxiety. It's a beautiful summer day, but I can't go out because I'm too messed up from a relapse.
I had a week of amazing, productive sobriety and ruined it with THAT FIRST DRINK. So, so tired of this. I want out of the addiction, but don't know if it is possible. Anyone else ever felt this way??