Thank you and you are so right, Grits. None of it matters and I just have to get over it. I know this intellectually.. so smart and so .... silly. Now I have to move fully into it. It's my baggage, totally! Why can't I just acknowledge I am a human being, too, along with everyone else? What is the issue here? I am on my knees asking for God to show me why I I I am making such a big deal out of this. I just need to be human and real like everyone else.