Have you thought about what made you to drink again after 8 months?
I think it is difficult for some people to receive help, I do not think it has necessarily to do with whether you accept you have a problem.
Legna wrote some, in my view, very insightful posts on AA in the " In AA but don't want to do "The Steps" anymore" thread.
I have never attended AA meetings and it would not be possible for me to do that, I do not see that as I do not take the problem seriously, that setup would not work for me.