MIssy - I did a six month out patient rehab last year. I was scared to death, like you are. What I learned is that all the patient files are sealed in the Chemical dependency unit. Therefore, none of my other doctors (OB/GYN, etc) had any knowledge of my time there. I also learned how many people have addictions and all of those who spend their lives trying to help those who do. It is just huge. An eye opener. Good luck to you, it will be a relief once you are there and realize that loving caring people will help you.