Well, I am glad to understand that, even tho' I sensed it was progressive from prior experience. I knew this last time I did not have another recovery in me and accepted that I was going to be taking anti-depressants for the rest of my life.
Being well for the first time, I say hurray for modern medicine!
here is a site I think you might like, has a lot of cutting edge mind/brain research.
www.MindandLife.com that is from memory so if it doesn't work, I will look it up.