You need a support system, I believe that only an alcoholic can understand what I am going thru.. Crying is fine if you are releasing your issues, I am doing the same, I can relate 100%.. My advice to you is make the time to go to meetings please, you are NOT ALONE! You do not have to do this alone... If not AA then something else.. There r resources you can find here.. I am 3 weeks sober and the first 2 I thought I could do it alone, I was so wrong.
BIG CONGRATS on your 30 days.....