Don't give up! I have followed your quest for sobriety here on SR and I KNOW how much you've had to struggle for each day. It really will get a bit easier if you hold on. I hope you make it today. I am struggling too - financial stress making me want to use or drink just to escape - but it is no longer an option for me. I know each time I go out it gets harder to return to sobriety. What if I go drink and I never get here again? What if you do? We need you. Stay close!