Originally Posted by
Orion90 
So what helps? I have that whole "reasoning" thing going on in my head that is trying to justify a trip to the liquor store.
Carl nailed it... you can't engage in any internal dialogue with that "reasoning"... you simply objectify it, separate from it, and ignore it completely. Don't even acknowledge it.
Ever have a friend as a child that was a right pain in the a$$ until you did something he wanted to do - knowing full well it would lead to trouble? If not, you're lucky. If yes, then I'll bet you stopped hanging out with that friend eventually. Because like everyone does, you came to realize that "friend" was just a selfish little twit.
Same same. Any voice in your head now trying to rationalize you drinking is that nagging, selfish little knucklehead. He is NOT you. He has his own agenda, and could care less about your welfare. So ignore him completely and go build a boat, or learn French, or start threads here, or play guitar, or..............
If you have strong weekly routines, break them. A strong pattern of living? change it, radically - at least temporarily. Friends that drink? Tell them you're sick with the flu and contagious. Take time off your regular life and deal with this proper.
Get away if you can, and if not, buy a game like Skyrim and PS3 your brains out whenever the little mouthy jerk starts up. Read the
BB online.
Listen to other alcoholics describe their own personal version of hell on earth, and what they did to escape.
Buy Rational Recovery.
And get some help. AA is right around every corner in the western world, and no, you don't have to admit you believe in Aliens or Gods to go there. They won't make you go to the airport and sell flowers. And you don't have to stand up, speak, or admit you're anything. Even if you go just to break your routines, go. It won't hurt and there's some genuinely good people there.
As Carl also pointed out, Rational Recovery is a book that will help you understand what's happening to the inside of your skull. It's less money than a few proper highballs. If you can get past the author's lengthy anti-AA rants, his techniques to treat alcoholism are brilliant. AVRT (Addictive Voice Recognition Technique) works.