Soberhawk, yes life is not over at 21 I understand, but to think of the big picture of getting sober at 21 and having this over welhming feeling that I can't drink again is very scary right now, when that's all I knew and loved for so long, but I have to take it day by day and I can't look or worry about anything past tommorrow... Because tommrow isn't promised. It's just a very over whelming and different feeling that I haven't felt.