Oh but you can deal with emotional pain without alcohol. You can. That is your addiction talking to you. Millions of people do, and you can too. Hang in there. If you feel you can't do both at once how about going to the drugstore and buying some nicotine lozenges or gum for now. Get the 2 mg and just use one whenever you feel this overwhelming urge to smoke or drink. Maybe that's a compromise that might help you through this?