If I can overcome the drink by achieving sobriety, there's a part of me that tells me I must be invincible. I mean, so few people actually get and stay sober. Sadly, I put this barely-conscious theory to the test.
Originally Posted by
KristyCat 
This is so me. My relapses have happened when I'm feeling really good. They rarely have happened when I feel bad.
In treatment, I read that some people use alcohol when they are very depressed, sad, lonely, etc. But some people use alcohol to "accentuate a high" or a good feeling. That was me. I think I have some slight mania going on sometimes, and this makes me think of all the partying and "good times" and is a huge trigger for me.
I need to learn how to accept these good feelings. Don't try to manipulate them to make them last longer or be better...just accept them and enjoy. Alcohol doesn't actually make the feelings better anyway...just turns the good feelings into impulsiveness and insanity tbh.