Hi Rabbit,
Interesting reading your post... I did the exact opposite. I got sober over 3 years ago from alcohol and eventually turned to opiates. It is not easy. You don't want to substitute one for another, obviously you are aware of this. Do you attend meetings or out-patient rehab or anything similar? What are you currently doing to help your recovery? It will get easier but the first few days / weeks just suck and all we can do is hold on sometimes. Coming here was a good idea though, SR is awesome...