Riky - I'm STILL dealing the financial fallout of crack over 6 years later. Losing my career didn't stop me, loosing my home didn't stop me. I just kept using, telling myself "I'll deal with it when I get clean".
Well, I'm dealing with it, alright. I wish I'd stopped when I "just" ruined my finances, I could have saved a lot of problems that I'm still dealing with.
Using isn't going to do anything but start the "more, more, MORE" tape in your head, and you're going to feel awful when you quit....again. Just stay quit, sweetie.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy