Originally Posted by
zad83 
Hello everyone -
I am a 30 year old white male in the middle of Ohio, I have a great successful career, a wonderful long term girlfriend, a nice house, a dog and a cat, and I'm a drunk.
It's amazing how much my life revolves around drinking and how I pick up the bottle without even thinking about it. Yesterday (Sunday) I realized I was going to be alone all afternoon so I went to the store, bought the big bottle of wine, and chugged it down in about an hour. I slept till 3 or 4, sobered up for a couple hours, then drank beer again all night. I managed to accomplish all this without my girlfriend having a clue.
Now is the time to stop. I have drank daily for about 10 years. My father is an alcoholic, and I can tell his health is going downhill... I'm hoping to make some connections through this site to help me with this.
Hello zad. I will tell you I was very open about getting into recovery when I first started back in April. When I picked up pot 64 days later, still don't remember why, I had to try explaining to a few people why I was picking back up.
Anyway, I remember doing that, except with pot. If I'd be home alone, just pack a big fat bowl, get a smile on my face and goof off then nap or something. Get up take some more hits hit the resin if there was no plant material left.
I was bad at hiding my smoking like I was bad at hiding my recovery. As a matter of fact, I wanted everyone to know when I was smoking, I'd pretty much announce it, like "Woo I'm a little stoned" to my grandmother lol. I liked having the chance to defend my habit. But in that way my Gma and my Aunt helped me get in touch with recovery and quit.
If I had to be hush-hush about it that might be rough. Because speaking to someone in person helps a lot. Get a good head start on this site and see if you can park in a corner of the parking lot at a night meeting. Say you're going to check out a gym. You'll already be sober all you need to do is ask for a meeting list and numbers when you introduce yourself.
Well that's all I got. Hope it helps. I'm on day 7 back. Using the forums has made such a difference.
