Hi Riky,
Please work this through without using. A lot of people are going through challenges right now. Not only is it the time of year and the state of the world, but --I hope you don't think this is weird--the Earth is experiencing a magnetic storm from the Sun right now. This always causes stress.
I advise checking this site daily:
SpaceWeather.com -- News and information about meteor showers, solar flares, auroras, and near-Earth asteroids
Best wishes!