Hi Zad.
It's never a bad time to stop. I'll caution you, as I do with everyone in your position, that it's very difficult to do this on our own. Coming here and sharing your concerns is a good start. I hope this works for you. You may also find that you need additional support to stay sober, as is true for many of us.
Based on your "small town" comment, I don't know what's available or safe for you where you live, but I encourage to find support.
Originally Posted by
zad83 
Hello everyone -
I am a 30 year old white male in the middle of Ohio, I have a great successful career, a wonderful long term girlfriend, a nice house, a dog and a cat, and I'm a drunk.
It's amazing how much my life revolves around drinking and how I pick up the bottle without even thinking about it. Yesterday (Sunday) I realized I was going to be alone all afternoon so I went to the store, bought the big bottle of wine, and chugged it down in about an hour. I slept till 3 or 4, sobered up for a couple hours, then drank beer again all night. I managed to accomplish all this without my girlfriend having a clue.
Now is the time to stop. I have drank daily for about 10 years. My father is an alcoholic, and I can tell his health is going downhill... I'm hoping to make some connections through this site to help me with this.