Hi Bluebird.
Yup, that's me as well. It's great you brought this up. I was just talking about this with my sister last night. When I relapsed, things were going well for me. I think it may have something to do with the mistaken idea that, when things are good, it doesn't seem possible to fall as far as I did when I drank. When I'm struggling, it's a shorter fall and seems easier to accept.
I've been this way with a lot of things in life. This time around, I've managed to learn the power of gratitude.