If you make changes in your life in the next 40 days (besides stopping drinking), you might find yourself feeling ready to continue your recovery. I think it's important to deal with the issues that have led you to alcoholism. You have found that your drinking is causing health and marriage problems and yet you continue to drink, most likely because you are not ready or willing to deal with the underlying issues.
I was a control-freak and that had a lot to do with me drinking. Being a control-freak is lonely and exhausting. I was depressed and had chronic insomnia. I had to learn how to let go and that the only thing I could control was how I reacted to things in my life.