Hello, Zad. Welcome to SR
It's day 1 for me too.
I've just finished my worse binge yet... 420cl of whisky. For some insane moment, I upped it by 140cl. I feel so mentally unstable (not suicidal) just very... I can't even explain it. Here at SR is the only thing that I know that encourages me to stay sober; all the wonderful advice and people's stories that I can relate to and know for sure - I'm not alone in what seems like an impossible struggle. I just have to keep coming back until I'm fixed. I sincerely hope that you can do the same