I really think that this is the exact realization that we alcoholics need in order to finally achieve our sobriety. The reason why sobriety escaped us for so long is that we think we have control over the alcohol and that we can magically stop...but we cannot. The negative and horrific consequences of our drinking just makes us feel like dirt and the drinking saga continues because we are so desperate to "feel better". You are so right that we cannot just have one and be done. I have taken this thought and have woven it into every fiber of my being. I think this is the key to my sobriety. Thank you for your post!!!!!