i can almost feel like
I am losing my mind at this point. I was here, so proud, didn't post much and was sober for about 6 weeks.
Then with work I drank once at dinner and it exploded... I think I have been drunk at this point for about 3 weeks.
I had no idea it was this bad until today, when I had a random moment of clarity.
I am back in trouble, I guess, and I know I am going to want to drink just to feel better.
As far as losing my mind, I meant I just completely lied to everyone these past week to everyone about why I have been so sick. It's sick and I feel so bad........like I want to never talk to them again because I have created such a damn lie world.
I feel like I don't know left from right anymore. anyway, that is my stupid same old newbie rant