You are not alone. You have all of us here on this site. Ive been in your shoes. My 1st husband was an alcoholic and very violent. I still carry scars. I know whats its like to feel alone. My family back then wouldnt have helped me even though they had the means to do so. my present husband is an alcoholic and now most of my family has passed on. So, in some ways Im still in the same boat as you only I own my own home. Hubbys name isnt on it. Call the shelters-not to live there-but ask them where to turn for help with employment, living arrangements, DVO, etc in your area until you can get on your feet. Go online. Call- whatever it takes-and come here for support too. You can and will get through this!