Treeners...
It's a hard thing to do, to really decide it's over. He decided for himself but now you get decide about you...really decide. I am sure addicts have to make the same core no going back decision to quit using. They have to change everything. For me, in my 15th day of being away from him, I am slowly pulling the plug. For me...not for him. That means removing photos, blocking friends of his on Facebook, so I won't be so inclined to look for him online. I removed him from my cell phone, so I can't accidentally "butt dial" him. I am really looking at ME, and why I would go back. Uggg, I really developed an illness too and I need to recover. Maybe there are some stories of people able to have healthy relationships right away; but...well I have not heard any yet. My ExBF is one year and he is trouble; financially, emotionally, health wise, just chaos.
Treeners: It's day 15 for me; and I went several hours today not thinking about him. It does get better.
Keep coming back.
Love/hugs
Carrie