Thanks everyone for your advice and encouragement. :-)
I'm amazed at how well I'm doing thus far. I've had minor anxiety but I think it was more from the clonidine patch making my b/p too low. I took it off yesterday and have no anxiety or depression since; just some irritable moments. And yup, just like with popping a pill and getting instant energy I'm expecting to wake up one morning or take a vitamin and feel instantly better. Although I do feel better than yesterday.
I'm sticking it out. Too much guilt and hell on myself and family. I don't ever want to put them, especially my daughter thru this ever again.
5 almost 6 days clean!!!!!!!!!!