Hi and welcome
Recovery was two things for me - it was stopping drinking and getting high firstly, but it was also learning to be happy with that.
I had to stop getting drunk or high altogether because without abstinence I was still in the cycle - alcohol and pot still had a hold over me and coloured my perceptions - and not for the better.
Once I was clean and sober, I had to build a life I was happy to live, sober. I also had to live with myself, so I changed a lot of things about the way I lived.
All that took time, but it was worth it
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