It is positive because I chose to be positive... Trust me it isn't easy because if I gave in to the feeling of loneliness and missing all my friends I would get depressed... Although calling them my friends I see it now that it is a bit of a stretch.. I guess they were drinking buddies... Also I do not think about anything I have done when drinking, that will be dealt with in a couple of months when I am stronger.
I still come home and go to sleep, I am tired in the evenings right after work, which is when I use to go out drinking... By 8pm I was very tipsy... So my naps are early and they keep me in line.. But I can say that I am happier and nicer to people at work and think twice before offending or being nasty to anyone... The alcohol made me so miserable and I see that now... It is like I was a totally different person.