is this what marriage is like?
I am sorry to hear of your pain and findings so early in your marriage. I hope not to get major flack for this, but I think now is time to do some major thinking and determine if, quite possibly, you want to live your life like this forever, but the odds point in that favor with any addict. You can get an annulment this early in the marriage. I don't want to throw a negative stone, but really REALLY think this through.