Arggg! I'm 6 days outta detox. I spent the day dealing with changing things for a move on Thursday. I feel like pulling my hair out! This relapse has cost me so much I'm still in shock. I miss my Ex, & he thinks we can "Be Friends" & watch a movie later. He hurt me (cheats & drinks), and, I know that the relationship is TOXIC! I don't like who I am around him. He makes me feel timid & I usually am by NO MEANS TIMID! It feels like my heart will burst when he text's! I'm in my mid 40's & have been through heartbreak a few times. Where I live now I HAVE to drive by him house to get to mine.(Added stress). (Where I'm moving is gated)...
It's just so hard to go through this loss & relocation after a relapse!..
I'm praying the anxiety will decrease once it's all over on Thursday...
I don't want to drink although I've hard urges today, (& Fear, Anger, anxiety, stress, heartache, Blah Blah Blah)
Just hurting that's all!
