Bob - you said you will never go back to the life you were living. You seem really committed to moving ahead with a sober life. You slipped, get up, and keep running.
As long as we chase sobriety and keep fighting we are winning. Time to start figuring out how to live sober - I'm still struggling with that myself but it is possible and worth it so I keep swinging. You can too!
Glad to see you realize that one "good" drunk will most certainly lead to a bad one.