Don't beat yourself up, Bob! Just start over. But I agree with the others--you need tools to help you to resist taking that first drink again. Did you ever go to AA the last 10 days? If not, you should seriously do so! (Or some kind of flesh support meeting). I went to my first AA meeting this morning and I have only been sober for 2.5 days. I plan on continuing to go--even though I feel pretty confident that I can do this and not relapse--because to me, AA is kind of like insurance---you may never get in an accident, but if you do, you are insured.