The minute you start entertaining the idea that someday you can handle a couple of drinks, that day usually arrives sooner than you wanted it. in other words, I would stay sober for a while than the thought comes to mind that a year from now, I will try "getting away" with few drinks I end up relapsing few days later. the idea of having a drink has to be SMASHED. read the big book over and over. it's one of those books you don't just read once.