Day 10 - Crash and Burn :-(
Wow - that happened quickly.
Feeling pissed right now so this will be short and sweet.
9 days. No problem. Was even starting to catch up on sleep. Was starting to feel like I had this.
Kid free night last night and there was no stopping me. No fight. No resistance. No desire to come here for support. No idea why.
We drank. I BBQ'd delicious food. I played guitar. We stayed up until 1am playing music and singing. Late night skinny dipping. Really let loose. Finally had some adult time :-) The reality is we had a great time. I had no remorse when we finally went to sleep.
Woke up this morning after a nice long slumber (completely alcohol induced) and couldn't believe it.
What on earth happened?
It would be easy to tell myself I have control of this and can easily go 9 days when I want, but I know the truth. It's claws are stuck deep within me. I wish I knew what happened. How did my resolve disappear so quickly? So sudden.
I will see this as what it was and refocus my efforts.
Back to day 1 :-(