Originally Posted by
Arrii 
Ive taken up hobbies to try deter me from it but now i just cant stay away from that muck. I know its only a mental thing its not going to harm me if i stop, its just breaking the horrible cycle.
Welcome.
It's "only a mental thing" that can take away our lives and everything else that's dear to us; leave us in financial, physical and psychological ruin; and has stumped our best scientists and medical minds for centuries.
At some point in my recovery, I learned to stop considering whether or not I can "do this" ("this" being sobriety and virtually every other challenge in my life), and instead started to believe that whether or not I can "do this" is unhelpful and detrimental when I believe I'm incapable. There's no shame in failure. For me, the real shame is not giving my best effort to things that are important to me.
It's never a bad time to walk away from the drink.