You sound like me. I got so I would wait for the liquor store to open at 8:30 so I could buy a twelve pack and two shooters of whiskey. The whiskey wouldn't make it home with me, I drank them on the way and it was only two blocks.
Yes, kindling can and does happen. It happened to me. I can't describe the fear, anxiety and guilt I would go through for three days after a four day binge. I actually hid in the closet once because I was freaking out so bad. Pitiful.
You can quit, although it may require help. There are different ways.
I'm two years seven months sober and you may get the picture that I was a serious, bad drunk.
Read here and post as often as you like. There's a lot of support here.