I've read about the 'kindling' phenomenon, never heard of it before, but given my patterns over the years I think it is a big part of what I am experiencing now. Binge for a wk or mnth, stop for few days spend weeks building back up from just moderate/heavy drinking of beer to adding whisky to the mix and binging ..repeat process.
The fact that starting to suffer the effects of withdrawl after any binge, like every morning now shows that I have crossed a biochemical/physiologic threshhold. Its been about 48 hrs since i last got 'real drunk' , the first 24 were bad but not enough for me to go seek medical help. Today its better not great , so hopefully this is a giant warning sign that screwing around will lead to dire consequences. I am sorry for rambling but thanks for the outlet. Just typing out the words makes feel like I am 'doing something about'