Thank you so much for your post. You'll never understand what it means to see someone who moved past the craziness. I know it was wrong even though I feel no remorse. I am done hitting (and kicking). I was so far out of line. The look on his face was terror at first. Addiction or not he didn't deserve that and I'm sure it's not gonna change a single thing. I am naturally calm until you push me then I can be pretty fiery, but this angry it's hard to describe. I keep asking what am I supposed to do and nobody will answer me, except him. His answer is "mind your own business and work your meetings; don't worry about me". How is that possible, our lives are meshed together? He is so selfish and thinks he's got everything figured out (including me). He uses that line as a free pass to run wild.
Originally Posted by
hisimage48 
Crazy I've not read the entire thread so I'm sorry if this has been addressed or the situation has changed. I want to say years ago when I was with a crack addict I did pretty much the same thing . I lost it. Could barely see straight and just hammered him and kicked him in the back just like you said. So, I understand when you say you list control.
My concern is if he comes back and you apologize and it goes back to the same thing , that the next time you won't be able to stop. That is a lot if anger stored up if your feeling anything like I did.
Good thoughts for you. Stay strong. Don't let people get you to that point