sounds like you where working towards order in your life and found it getting out of line again. Like you I sobered up lost weight and started fixing things in my life. Lost more weight quit smoking got in shape got out of debt blah blah still gotta clean out the basement and so on.
Its cool that you recognize the need to make forward progress rather then allowing the world to cave back in on you. I too find that if i just stay headed in the right direction things tend to stay somewhat ok. But i get scared myself even to detour from the course.