you're really tired too don't forget as you've been up since really early this morning and yesterday too. Being tired can make me feel so low - don't rule out the fact that you're so tired and maybe this is affecting your thinking?
Your kids need you so much. They need you more than they need anyone and they love you.
Plus maybe you're feeling more down because you drank last week maybe. I know I always felt low a few days after I quit following a relapse.
Things reallywill get better for you. Can you maybe have a bath, a warm drink and get to bed.xxx