Originally Posted by
MyTimeNow 
I'll be ok, always am. Hah.
I feel like a clown with a face on all the time. I haven't been happy since I was 12, I've had all the drugs and therapy. I'm not giving anything to anybody, there is nothing out there for me.
I'm a good person, but damn right that both my kids would be better off without me.
What are you going to do to change that? Today is a new day. It is up to you. What can you do to make a difference today in your kids lives in your life.
You can not wish yourself happy, you have to take action. Make a plan. Take baby steps to become the person you want to be. We are not defined by others. We r defined by ourselves. Who are you. Who do you want to be? If you want to have esteem do esteemable things.
You can create your own identity. If you don't like what you see in the mirror, what can you do to change that?
Get out of yourself and do something for someone else today.