When my kids were little I isolated from the world to such an extent I would sit alone in the garden while my husband occupied them. I had no energy, no will to live, nothing. All around me was a blackness and heaviness and it was at that point my drinking got a grip of me. I wanted to end it, and I planned how to do it.
I was depressed MTN, and I needed help.
There was a place for me in the world, as there is for you. We are Mums. There is no greater gift than our children. Don't turn away from them, they need you.
All I can tell you is that it does get better. Once the drink was gone, I was able to face the demons of the past and gradually re-build myself. I am no longer depressed MTN. Life is good. Therapy isn't easy, but I can promise you that the life I always wanted was right here in front of me. I just needed help to see it.
Hang in there xxx