Originally Posted by
lessgravity 
Nothing had changed. I just gave in again to the AV. I could name the bulls$t reasons but the fact is that those reasons are caused by my hangovers.
I'm committing to re-reading Rational Recovery in its entirety tomorrow. I know I should do meetings. Is that what you think I might be missing?
I wasn't suggesting anything in particular. I'm not a meeting/AA person myself, but I wouldn't rule it out at least if you haven't found a plan that works.
I do think structure is important though, whether self imposed or via a very regimented plan. Especially in the beginning we live off the adrenaline/excitement of those first few sober days. Remember the fire in your belly when you were fighting off your av that first week?
But then the newness wears off and we drop our guard. That's when it's most important to have a plan. I truly hope you find it...and you CAN do it.