Addiction truly is a selfish disease. They lie, manipulate and guilt their way through their addiction. I still have lots of anger, resentment and guilt in my heart because of my husbands actions. But I can tell you that each day gets a smidge better. For me I'm working on acceptance. Not acceptance of the things he has done, just accepting that it's done I can't change it and I need to move forward. I find a lot of peace at al anon. I've met people there who have been through the ringer and still find peace and happiness in their lives. That gives me hope that I too can one day be happy.
We deserve to be happy! We deserve peace!