Valuable insight you guys. Thank you so much.
Gooch I believe it's the game face for sure. Lived my whole life that way. Perky, joyous, sweet, and kind. Most always that was how I felt, but was taught even if the worse disaster happened to me I was to NEVER show the saddness or pain. Enter "Game Face". Working my program I refuse to LIE to me or anyone else. I just wasn't into the ring thing the other night.
Family is still looking for "Game Face Girl". She won't be coming back. I used to hide my real saddness or anger. I needed the tools to learn, and say "Umm. At this moment I can't be jumping around for joy".
I called my friend yesterday.....told her I am truly thrilled for her, and we made plans for lunch this week. Then I can get to see her diamond, and truly hug her, and be extremely happy for her. No "Game Face".
Lucky I went to a Meeting. My families response to all that actually set me on a mental relapse. I really appreciate all your help.