hartman

hi everyone,was pretty brief with my last post as had only that day quit and was in a bad way so now my heads a lot clearer i can tell you a little about myself and my quest for a sober clean happy life. I'm a man of 28 and have been binge drinking since i was 15.I first started drinking with my dad who was also an alcoholic but quit for 7 years until 3 years ago he died suddenly from a heart attack at 44.I would never blame this on my last couple of years being the heaviest i have been drinking but it for sure as you can imagine didn't help matters.I have always taken alcohol to the absolute limits blacking out after most sessions and always drinking the next morning to 'feel normal' again. I was always under the impression alcohol was giving me the confidence and happiness i needed and i also that i wouldn't have to feel the pain and hurt i feel as a quite a sensitive person.It was also a way to calm my panic attacks i would have when in stressful situations, but this just caused a vicious circle. I have a great woman in my life who has stuck by me through everything and i really am so thankful to have her in my life,she is my angel. I have gone 24 days sober now and am not feeling too bad,first week was hell! Am quite bored,eating loads of ice cream and sweets and on anti-depressents but i am just glad that i am on the right track now and away from drink. I am determined to stay like this and wish you all the best of luck with your goals too. Finding this site very helpful, thanks for reading. peace