Mizz,
I found a book by dorothy rowe called "depression the way out of your prison" useful .
I also found some solace in the four noble truths as taught by buddha, not as a religeon or anything supernatural but as a philosophy to live with .
The only thing i can otherwise say is that you are in a far better place to deal with these things sober than you would be otherwise , only us in recovery know what a miracle each and every sober day is .
There is hope , the sun will shine again , life is and can be glorious ,
m