Old 07-22-2013, 11:15 AM
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mecanix
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Mine wasn't easy but it wasn't the anguish i see with some , as with pain i think we all have different thresholds .
I knew i'd flogged the dead horse far enough with my drinking , it no longer held any pleasure . It had become a crutch one that i knew other people managed to quit and stay off permanently , so why not me . I was prepaired for all kinds of stuff .

in the end a few times screwed up on the floor sobbing feeling wretched were about as bad as it got and even then i was thinking " oh mecanix get over yourself " I firmly lay the blame as to why i felt that way at alcohols door and yet another reason why i think relapse is crazy. I'd have to be mad to consider drinking again .

Onwards with learning how to make my life even better, happier and rigourous in freedom , i wish you the same

Day 688 and going strong ,

Bestwishes, m
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