Originally Posted by bigbasscat

For me, after having grown up without any concept of normal, getting into self medication with A & D, I eventually became acquainted with human beings who could be trusted, that didn't abuse themselves or their kids, didn't live outside society.

I made the conscience decision to choose life over death.

I got clean first, kicked alcohol 4 years later.

I don't discuss my bottom.

Shame, guilt and depression are the natural result of addiction. When I was in recovery they became less of a factor in my life and my outlook.

My denial was that everyone around me used, drank or both and I saw that behavior as natural.

I attempted to avoid everyone I knew that was still actively using/drinking when I made my break from that life.