That's what I strived for, Seraphine - to be a social drinker. I couldn't imagine letting go of it all together, but in the end it brought me nothing but misery. Every time I got one drink in my system - my resolve to just have 'a few' went out the window. Over a 30 yr. period I proved to myself I couldn't moderate. I had to let go of the idea I could ever control it - and then I was able to get free.