Originally Posted by
teardrop 
im not a church going bible basher praying person
I am not either. In fact we had nothing of this when I grew up. No church, no religion, no prayer. Nothing. The only time I heard the word God when was when someone stubbed their toe, "Oh God, that hurts"
A higher power has nothing to do with God or any other name one wants to give it. It is about believing in something other than ourselves.
When I was drinking I only trusted me. Me and me alone. I trusted no other person or "God" for that matter. All that mumbo jumbo was stupid.
What I have learned is my automatic dislike of things I do not understand came from fear. Fear of the unknown. I could not trust the unknown. I could only trust what I knew. Me and booze. They, in my mind, never let me down.
The only bit I needed was to admit that maybe, out there, was a power greater then me. I did not trust it. I did not pray to it. I just thought maybe.
It is progress, not perfection.