Hey hey Dusty. God job posting here! No wonder you're tied up in knots. Here you are going to a meeting and trying to do what you need to do for you..and you hit some roadblocks. It's not supposed to be like that. Then you add insult to injury by having some sort of emotional issue with a man. Of course you're feeling stress! That's normal. How you're feeling is a normal reaction of frustration. It's is a RIGHT feeling. It is not right to drown that feeling. It will pass...I guarantee it. You can do it...you're facing emotions and building sobriety muscle. It's unfortunate that you're emotions got taxed so early in sobriety...but HEY...here you are...getting on through it...and will be all the stronger for it. Acknowledge that "it sucks"...and its okay...and it will pass.